Video Game Crushes: Chun-Li

Chun-Li is probably my very first video game crush. True, my love for Princess Peach originated earlier, with Super Mario Bros. 2, but I didn’t exactly think of her as a crush. I just liked playing as her. With Chun-Li, though, I was smitten.

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Like many, many kids in the early 90s, I was obsessed with Street Fighter II. I only made it to arcades occasionally, but when the game was released for the SNES in 1992, I was all over it. Even though each character’s story is fairly shallow and consists of a small batch of dialogue and a few short scenes, I played and replayed each character just to have a reason to play the game. Chun-Li and Guile were my favorites, though, so I felt the need to beat their story campaigns on the hardest difficulty (having said that: fuck Bison and Sagat on the hardest difficulty. So cheap. I hate them and I want them dead.).

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Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TQaDLTeawX4

Chun-Li’s story is a basic revenge plot, where she is hunting down M. Bison, who killed her father, but I loved that she had her own journey and wasn’t tied to other fighters. Even as a kid I remember that making her unique, even if I had no clue about the significance of her being the first playable female character in a fighting game. I just knew that she was strong, she was fast, she was (in my opinion) the best fighter, she was absolutely beautiful, and she showed that she wasn’t afraid of expressing both extreme focus and youthful jubilation (“Yatta!”). And how can I leave out her trademark blue qipao? The combination of the elegant silk dress and hair ribbons with her seriously spiked bracelets and hardcore combat boots perfectly represent her personality and spirit.

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I haven’t played every single iteration of Street Fighter that’s come out, but I’ve played most of them. Chun-Li remains my favorite character. She’s always very fast and her long legs allow her a nice reach, and I love using her wall jump to get out of being cornered. The story of Street Fighter seems complicated and a little ridiculous to me at this point, so I’ve lost track of the twists and turns of Chun-Li’s backstory, but she remains a fierce and beautiful warrior, dedicated to justice. For that reason she will probably always be my main.

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Source: https://www.deviantart.com/musgravehall/art/Chun-Li-Street-Fighter-659674153

(Note: featured image source – https://www.deviantart.com/semsei/art/130912-Chun-li-sketch-399787109)

Making Memories with Persona 4 Golden

As I wrote previously, I absolutely loved Persona 5. I’d been interested in the series for a long time, so I was happy to be rewarded by such an excellent entry into the franchise. It was the kind of game that I just didn’t want to be done with, so I ended up beating it almost three full times in order to get the platinum trophy for it. Beyond that, I ended up buying both Persona 3 and Persona 4 for the PS2, since they were pretty cheap online, and later I bought a PlayStation Vita and Persona 4 Golden because I’d heard that it was also quite excellent. I finally got around to playing the latter recently, so I wanted to put some of my thoughts about it down in writing.

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I have to say, I was a bit nervous before actually sitting down to play it. Persona 5 has a lot of systems, which is probably part of the reason they take their time in teaching you those systems in the early hours of the game. Atlus does a great job with it, and before I knew it I felt like a master at the weakness/affinity-based combat system, but I worried that P4G might not be quite so refined in its tutorials, being eight years older than its sequel (the original P4, anyway). I needn’t have worried, as P4G was very much like P5 in almost every aspect, tutorials and combat included.

When I say they are similar, I really mean it. One of the games is about a young high school kid who stays with his stern (but later loving) male guardian who has a young daughter whose mother was hit and killed by a car, and you learn that you have the ability to travel to an alternate dimension and use shadows, and with the help of a colorful cast of classmates and townsfolk, you save people from that shadow dimension and kill a god. The other game is about [copy and paste that whole thing here].

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The two being so similar isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Though interesting, the premise of the game is not at the top of the list of things I loved about either game. There are some small changes in mechanics that make P5 an arguably better game, but the combat is virtually the same in each, and I loved fighting in both of them. I usually hate games that force you to change up your skills and attacks in order to exploit enemy weaknesses (sometimes I just wanna mindlessly bash away at things, okay?), but somehow these two games turned that concept into a well-coordinated dance. I very much enjoyed sizing up each group of enemies, thinking about what abilities each of my party members had, and then figuring out who to attack with, who to buff with, etc. In most RPGs, when I win a battle I feel strong. In these games, I felt smart.

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More important than the combat, I think, is the cast of characters and the relationships you form with them. So much of these games centers on finding people, learning about them, and establishing a deeper bond with them. The dating in P4 is a little less engaging than it is in P5, but I still liked having it as an option. In my first playthrough I dated Yukiko. She is smart, introspective, industrious, and has that kind of elegant traditional Japanese thing going on. I can’t say I wasn’t tempted to abandon my quest to win her heart when Rise came into my life, though. She is fun, flirty, ambitious, and very cute. I was in too deep with Yukiko, though, so I saved Rise for my second game. I was very close to picking Marie, too, though, and she would have definitely been my next lady if I were to play it a third time. None of them held a candle to Ann from P5, but I did like those three ladies a lot.

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Source: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXK3a6vaSVI

You know who else I liked? Kanji. If there’s an area that P4 beats out P5 in, it might be humor. P4 is a very funny game, and I found myself laughing out loud several times, which is pretty uncommon for me. My typical reaction to humor in games is a chuckle or maybe a conservative “heh” or a “ha” or two strung together. Not so with P4. I found myself having to stop and just laugh at certain scenes, even on my second playthrough. Kanji was the source of much of that laughter. He and Naoto are also super interesting for how they’re used to look at issues of gender and sexuality in games. I wish Atlus had gone further with them, though, because it seems like they wanted to make Kanji gay and Naoto gender non-conforming but pulled back at the last second and had them be semi-closeted or confused rather than forsake their feelings. The point of the shadows in this game is that they represent a part of you that you repress, and in defeating them you admit that they are just as much a part of you as the “real” version. So, given that Kanji’s shadow is gay, that means that he is either gay or bi in the real world, but after defeating his shadow he continues to act like he’s totally, definitely “not like that,” which seems weird. And Naoto eventually reveals that she presents as male because of societal expectations, but even after being outed as a woman she asks that they continue to treat her as a male and still presents as male (until the epilogue, anyway). So I think they could have done a little more to make those two characters definitively different, but they were still interesting and unique characters that are not commonly found in games.

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The art style and soundtrack are also very good, as they are in P5. I like the red/black/white theme of P5 more than the yellow/green theme in P4, but they share a lot of the same visual flare and attention to the most minute of details. This ended up being a lot more clinical than I’d intended, but sometimes it’s hard to convey why the magical cocktail of ingredients in any given game is so delicious and intoxicating. Persona 4 made me happy. At the end of P4 and P5 your new friends speak to you about leaving and there’s a kind of bittersweet thing going on, because you all revel in the good times you had but lament the fact that it’s all over and you have to leave them behind. It seems like a purposeful design choice, because as a player I was going through the same thing. I was sad to finish both of these games, even though I’d spent dozens and dozens of hours with them. I wished I could have stayed, just as my character did, but I had to move on. I console myself by reminding myself that there are three more mainline Persona games I have yet to play, so maybe I’ll do one each summer for the next few years, and by the time I’m done with them there will be a fresh, new Persona game to steal my heart.

 

Doki Doki Literature Club!

[Doki Doki Literature Club! is a game that deserves to not be spoiled. This blog will have lots of spoilers, so please don’t read it if you haven’t yet played the game. It’s free on Steam, so why not give it a try?]

The only things I knew about Doki Doki Literature Club! before playing it were that it looked like a hundred other dating sims on Steam and that it was “dark.” That was the word that kept coming up when people would talk about it, though they were (thankfully) careful not to say much else. “Dark” is a vague word that can mean many things, so I thought it might deal with more serious subjects than the normal, bubbly dating sims I’ve played. I was intrigued, and it is free on Steam, so I gave it a shot. Man, am I glad I did.

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“Dark” is an understatement, really. There are a couple of hints that your best friend, Sayori, is not as she seems, so when you, the player, show up at her house and she explains that she has been suffering from crippling depression for a long time, I was only partially surprised. Was this the darkness people spoke of? Maybe, but I doubted people would go so far as to caution people about a character who is depressed. From that, I correctly guessed that Sayori would probably attempt (and succeed at) suicide, which certainly fits the “dark” descriptor, especially given how dramatically it’s presented. The image of her body is shocking and in your face, and your character does not handle it very well.

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But that’s not the true darkness. When Monika breaks the fourth wall prior to the suicide, telling you to make sure that you save your game and things like that, I thought it was just a funny, quirky way of reminding you of certain game mechanics. But, no. She is alive and sentient and killing off the other girls to gain your attention. She starts with Sayori, convincing her to commit suicide, and of course it’s kind of my fault, because she confessed to being in love with me but I was trying to get with Yuri.

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So the game starts over with Sayori now gone completely, and what am I to do? I’m of course still shocked and confused by what happened, but I guess I should keep playing, right? So I do, and I keep trying to woo Yuri. Sweet, pretty Yuri. She is lovely, mysterious, shy and a little bit oh my god she is stabbing herself in the chest. Monika has gotten to her as well. And my character sits with her body for two days as cryptic, broken text scrolls continuously on the screen. Yes. This game truly is dark.

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I kept playing until it was just Monika and me, her staring into my eyes and explaining that when she gained consciousness and saw me through a small hole (my webcam, I would suppose), she fell in love and wanted to be a part of my world. It was oddly touching. Well, if you discount the fact that she murdered her friends to get the chance.

After I finished the game the first time, I ended up looking up a way to get the best ending and did just that, because I loved the game so much. It was dark, yes, but it did such a good job of leading the player through all of it, and repeated playthroughs yielded fun surprises. The girls’ poems make more sense when you know their backstories, and Monikas’ in particular are very revealing. The game is so successful at deceiving the player because it takes itself so seriously. That’s why it has to be free, too, because it really sells itself as a standard dating sim. The art, the music, the writing – it’s all legitimately solid and convincingly sincere. Better than many of the actual dating sims I’ve seen on Steam, in fact. So charging money for it would only guarantee that many people wouldn’t play it. A lot of people are too meek for dating sims as it is, so even if they hear that this game is “not what you’d expect,” they likely wouldn’t plunk down some money lest they end up playing a typical, bubbly, romance game. So even the pricing and marketing of this game is well thought out. If you watch the trailer, it doesn’t hint at anything sinister. There’s no creepy undertone or “but things aren’t as they seem” tagline. Nope. It’s just what you’d expect from a dating game filled with cute anime girls.

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And that’s why the twists are so effective, and why I loved this game so much. It is so unlike any game I’ve ever played. I want everyone I know to play it but recommending it is a tricky thing. The more I tell them to play it, even suggesting that it’s “not what they would expect,” the more I give away the potential for surprise. So I’ll just stay quiet and watch for openings. I’ll be patient and strategic and wait for a good time to strike. Just like Monika taught me.

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Catching Up/Recently Played

One of the main reasons I started this blog was to track some of my thoughts about games I play, for my own benefit. Writing about games helps me retain memories of them, and I value having a record of my gaming experiences. I realized this back when I had a blog on the now defunct 1UP.com, because revisiting those blogs was always fun and sometimes insightful. I haven’t been doing that with this blog, because I’ve been using it to work out specific kinds of ideas that I encounter in games, in the hopes that they will allow me to use them in future projects/papers. But you know what? I want to get back into it. It’s fun, and me from ten years in the future wants it, so here is a giant thought-dump on some of the games I’ve played over the last few months. [I realize that people do read this blog on occasion, so I should say: Spoiler warning for plot-related beats]

Detroit: Become Human

It’s hard to dislike a game as beautiful as Detroit. And I wouldn’t say I dislike it, exactly. I liked it well enough. But when a developer puts so much money and time and effort into getting real actors and modelling/animating characters with such realism that some screenshots could easily fool people into thinking they were from a movie, the moments that seem to indicate poor or lazy development stand out a lot more. I appreciate David Cage and his team’s desire to create rich, realistic worlds and tell complex and challenging stories in them, but they always seem a little half-baked. Using androids as a parallel for issues of race and equality can be done. The obvious comparison is Blade Runner, since this game pulls a lot of its plot straight from that movie. But where Blade Runner makes Deckard’s personal journey the focus and all of the issues of equality, personhood, and discrimination subtle colorings that play out in tandem, Detroit puts all of those issues front and center, shoving them in your face scene after scene.

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If you had any doubt that this game was a retelling of the Civil Rights movement (with a dash of the Holocaust), Claire, the android on the main menu, shares a quote from Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. and (separately) informs you that the city of Detroit was on the underground railroad, and in the game, androids have to ride in the back of the bus, they are rounded up into camps for elimination, they have to wear specific markings to identify themselves, they have no rights, they have their own underground railroad, they march in the face of police violence with their hands up, and more. This game tries very hard to be “high art,” and I want that so badly from new video games, but its lack of subtlety implies a belief that the audience is not smart enough to read into allegory or metaphor or allusion. So as a narrative adventure game, it’s beautiful and sometimes fun, if a bit clunky in places. As a piece of art, it’s shallow and disappointing.

Senran Kagura: Peach Beach Splash

Where do I even begin? This squad-based, water gun shooter would be a perfect example to illustrate how someone might actually enjoy something that is socially problematic. This game objectifies its characters unlike any game I’ve played. It’s not just that the plot requires them to all be in small bikinis, or the fact that you can dress them in lots of barely-there or see-thru outfits, or even that you can then pose them in those outfits in various states of undress and sexually suggestive poses. The most problematic thing is probably that one of the main gameplay moves is to humiliate a downed opponent by blasting her in the face, chest, or butt to blast her bikini off against her will. Actual naughty bits are blocked out, but it’s the fact that you’re forcibly undressing a defenseless girl that’s problematic.

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Having said all of that, I played the hell out of this game. I was honestly expecting to play for a few hours and get bored, but the shooting mechanics are solid, the various weapons require unique tactics that were fun to learn, and hopping/zipping around using the water jetpacks was a blast. I had planned on playing through the main story and then moving on, but I was having so much fun that I decided to get some of the trophies that went with upgrading your characters and weapons. Well, to upgrade those things you have to use duplicates of the collectable cards that you get after each match (or from the in-game shop). So as I began to grind for those, I started becoming obsessed with filling out my collection and getting new cards that would make me better/stronger/faster so that I could tackle the challenging tournament mode. In the end, I played way, way more of this game than I’d expected to. But I regret nothing, even if I do feel compelled to point out how problematic it is.

The Walking Dead: Seasons 1 & 2

I’d heard so much about “the Telltale formula” of storytelling that I had been wanting to play these games for a very long time. I played Telltale’s Back to the Future game some months back and wasn’t super impressed by its abundance of clunk and bugs, but I’d heard much, much better things about the TWD games. For the most part, I think they live up to the hype. They are still quite clunky in places, and some of the character/facial animations are distracting, but it does some interesting things with narrative, character, and choice. It’s not quite as revolutionary as I expected, because the core story is still the same for everyone, regardless of choices, but many of the choices were difficult to make and usually didn’t feel contrived.

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I will say that I was happy to be finished with them by the end, though. I have been prone to seasonal summer depression these last couple of years, and TWD games are very much like the show in that the characters move from one shitty, challenging event to another, with very little to celebrate. Having to make tough decisions that sometimes resulted in the deaths of characters I wanted to keep alive, or having the plot kill off characters for me, or never having a place that we could really dig in and set up like a home was getting to me. So I think these are important and useful games to look at for story, but man did they bum me out.

Life is Strange: Before the Storm

Life is Strange: Before the Storm also gave me a case of the feels, but in good way? Kind of? Within two minutes of starting the game and being reminded of the cringe-inducing lingo that the characters in this world use, I was unsure of how well this game would live up to the quality of its predecessor. That, and Chloe’s faux-punk attitude was so annoying. She was trying way too hard. But slowly, slowly the story began to flesh these characters out and make them multi-dimensional, just as the first game had, and by the last couple of chapters I found myself wiping my eyes more than I care to admit.

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I’m not pinning a first place ribbon on this game for subtlety, but it does character emotion and interaction far, far better than Detroit, so even though I knew Rachel Amber’s fate going in, I couldn’t help but mourn her fall in this story, especially when I found myself inadvertently flashing back to the scene where Chloe is bawling over Rachel’s make-shift grave in the first game. I went into this game with some serious skepticism, but it very much won me over by the end.

Undertale

Undertale is the kind of game I wish I’d discovered on my own. When I hear people repeatedly describe a game as “quirky” and “weird,” it loses much of that by the time I play it because I’m expecting it. One of the things that made EarthBound (a game Undertale is often compared to) so magical for me was that I went into it with almost no expectation. I went into Undertale knowing that it played with expectations and humor and combat, so I missed out on the fun surprise that would have come with discovering all of that for myself.

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Still, it was a fun game that did indeed do some interesting things that challenged gaming norms. Specifically, the fact that the game challenges you to actually not fight for the entirety of the game is great. I mean, technically you’re still engaging the enemies in combat and defeating them, but the language is not that of “attack” and “destroy,” which is a small but important distinction. There were some genuinely hilarious bits, too, and aside from the (purposely?) bloated end levels/scenes if you try for the “good” ending, it was a pretty brisk experience. Overall, I liked it.

God of War

Speaking of going into a game with expectations, I had very little interest in God of War until it was released and received universal and overwhelming praise. I had grown tired of the series by the third installment, and I was skeptical of the father-son thing. Over the years, Kratos became a parody of hyper-masculine bro-ness, and his son, to be honest, looked a bit like the son of a douche-y bro-dude with his baby scowl and faux-hawk. But with such all-encompassing love from every direction, I had to try the game out.

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I was glad I did, of course. There is a little of the “I’m a tough-guy dad!” “Well I’m a tough-guy son!” thing, but not exactly in a bad way. The game develops the characters at a slow and deliberate pace (until one section later in the game, where I learned the developers actually cut planned content that would have maintained the slower pace). Some of the backgrounds are bland, but most of the environments and characters are gorgeous. This was the first game I played with my TV’s HDR mode active, and it really made a difference. The color and particle effects are stunning. The character models are so detailed and make the characters lively and believable. I didn’t care for the combat at first, but once I got the hang of using Atreus I found it to be fun and challenging.

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My favorite part of the game, though, was the Valkyries. I liked the game enough to want to platinum it, so I ended up having to face all of them, and hoo boy. They were so much harder than the regular bosses in the core game, none of which I had to fight more than a few times on normal difficulty. And their design was amazing. I spent a lot of time taking a lot of screenshots of each of them, and even more time wondering how I would go about asking one of them on a date if I lived in their world. Just kidding. Mostly. But they are the best.

Far Cry 5

A lot of people seemed to be disappointed that Far Cry 5 didn’t go far enough with its political commentary, or that it didn’t take it seriously enough. But I think there was tons of social and political commentary, in both broad strokes and subtle environmental cues or side-quests. Could it have gone further? Sure. But given that the vast majority of mainstream games try to avoid this kind of thing, I applaud it.

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All of that aside, I found the game to be fun and I very much liked exploring the map and (usually) stealthing around with my bow, picking off cultists and sparing animals (when I could). The vehicles still mostly still handle poorly, but I can’t say I didn’t love being able to collect them, especially having an attack helicopter to zip around in (with my preferred partner, Jess Black, by my side). There was something seriously satisfying about unloading a volley of missiles and then spraying high caliber ammo on an installation of panicking cultists. I think I liked Far Cry 4 better in some ways, but I had a really good time with this entry as well.

The Stanley Parable

This is another game that I knew had something about it, so I wasn’t as pleasantly surprised as I could have been by its quirk and novelty. It’s not a pretty or deep game, but it was pretty funny and I like games that try to upend player expectations, and the whole point of this game is to do just that. So it was worth the 2-3 hours I spent with it.

I also played a lot of Doki Doki Literature Club! but I want to write a separate post about that. I’ll try and keep up with my thoughts from now on, but I do take my comprehensive exams for my PhD in August, soooooo my time will be more and more consumed by anxiety and guilt and less, sadly, by games and blogging.

How My Students Define “Gamer”

One my favorite activities to do with my students has been having them build profiles of people as a class. I ask them to close their eyes and picture a specific kind of person, and then they tell me the attributes they pictured. Because I use video games to teach many of my classes, I almost always have them build a profile of a “gamer.” I’m going into my sixth year of teaching first-year English and I’ve done this with most of my classes. It’s an easy activity and it requires little thought on the part of the student, so I always have great participation. The most interesting part is afterward, when we explore why we came up with this profile. I usually have a handful of video game ads ready to show, which demonstrate how the images we’re exposed to play a huge role in how we develop profiles. Guess who shows up in the vast majority of the ads? The person my students describe. The attributes that virtually every class gives are:

Male
White
Age 14-20
Middle class
Skinny
Nerdy
Blonde or brown hair

After asking them how they came up with the image in their mind, I show them statistics from the Entertainment Software Association that suggest their profile is a bit off, at least in terms of gender and age. A few years ago there were more women playing video games than men, but the most recent ESA report has women at 45%, which is still close enough to half to question why every student in every class has said that they picture a male. The average gamer is also 34 years old, so why do students see teenagers? To answer this (in part, at least), we look at old video game ads. Here are a few:

This usually prompts a great discussion about representation in media and how it dictates behavior and belief, but the reason that I’m writing this blog has little to do with that discussion. I am teaching high school students for the first time ever this summer, and I did this activity with them to talk about audience and purpose. When I asked the sophomores and juniors for their attributes of a “gamer,” their profile lined up very closely with the profile I almost always get from my college students: male, teenager, white, middle class, nerdy, etc. As I was writing my freshmen student’s attributes on the board, I began seeing surprising differences. One class gave an average age of 25-30, the other said 35. Both classes said upper class instead of middle class. I thought that was odd, too. They both said that a gamer would have a nice headset with a microphone and an expensive gamer chair. I knew something was weird at this point. How are these profiles so different from the others? They added that he (still male) would probably have facial hair and a lot of collectible stuff, like action figures and posters. When the second class shared these very specific things as well, I knew something was going on. These students all come from different schools and cities, and have only known each other for two weeks, so it’s not like they’ve subconsciously come to some kind of shared profile for what a gamer is.

You may have already guessed the source of their unique vision: Twitch. When I asked them why they all agreed that this is what a “gamer” was, they said it was what streamers looked like. The ones they watch are male, 25-35 years old, they have expensive headsets and mics, gaming chairs and swag, many of them have facial hair, and they all must be upper class because, as my students explained, they make millions of dollars and have nice stuff. This probably isn’t much of a revelation to some, but this is the first time that I’ve seen a shift in how “gamer” is defined by my students, and I would guess it’s not isolated to these two classes of students from different backgrounds. I can’t speak to Twitch’s longevity, but its current and recent success, paired with Fortnite’s broad appeal, makes me wonder if it is actively changing how a whole generation of people will view gamers. Sure, my students will probably reach a point where they realize that the successful streamers that they pictured are the rare exception and far from the rule (if they don’t already), but I will be interested to see how future classes define “gamer.” Who knows, maybe some of the other things on their lists, like gender and race, will change as well?

Guilt-Gaming and State of Decay 2

It’s summer once again, and once again I feel that strange mix of emotions that comes with being between semesters of work. It’s summer: my favorite season when I was a kid. It meant playing baseball or basketball or football every day, swimming, sleeping as late as I wanted and, of course, no school. That warm glow has never left me, and I still consider it my favorite season, one that I look forward to during the school year when papers are piling up and final deadlines grow ever nearer. I can play video games, read for fun, catch up on movies, sleep as late as I want, I tell myself near the end of every spring semester. And yes, I can do some of those things. But when you’re a woefully underpaid grad student who doesn’t have the privilege to teach over the summer, there is a lot of stress that comes with this particular season. Having to save much of the previous semester’s financial aid because you don’t get paid is probably the biggest, and while I was lucky enough to snag a short-term job this summer, I also take my PhD comprehensive exams in August, so this summer has been far from the carefree break that I so miss from my childhood.

I have, however, allowed myself lots of time for video games. Gorging yourself on games over a break can sometimes come with its own sense of guilt, though. Should I really be spending so much time on this? Shouldn’t I be doing something, I dunno, more productive? Are people secretly judging me? Or would they, if they knew how much I was actually gaming? Sometimes these kinds of thoughts are active and present in my mind, but often they sort of sit beneath the surface, manifesting themselves as just an odd sense of sadness or anxiety. And, while these feelings have been popping up as I’ve recently been playing games like God of War and Undertale, I didn’t really feel them when I was playing State of Decay 2.

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Credit: https://www.windowscentral.com/state-of-decay-2-review

The reason this was so surprising to me is that I have a lot of problems with State of Decay 2. Or, I should say, State of Decay 2 has a lot of problems. I didn’t play the first game, but the premise sounded like lots of fun and a close friend was going to be buying and playing it, so I figured I’d give it a shot. It is a shockingly ugly game. I’m not just talking about the design elements, I mean the textures, lighting, modelling, almost everything is very rough, which makes the fact that the game has lots of issues with bugs, loading, and pop-in that much more frustrating. I would have thought they were trading detailed graphics for smooth loading, but that is not the case. Character movements are janky, combat is spotty, and driving is horrendous. These issues are compounded when playing online, even with just two people. I found myself being attacked by invisible zombies, crashing my car into invisible walls, and getting my character stuck in the road beneath a vehicle, all after the gigantic 20Gb patch that was supposed to fix many of those issues — a patch which broke the single player game for me, not allowing me to play at all unless I’m invited to a multiplayer session. The game also feels very game-y, with zombies constantly spawning so that it never feels like a real world with real consequence to your in-game actions. Conveniently enough for the game, there just happens to be a zombie every fifteen yards or so, robbing players of the fear that comes with exploring the unknown, because you always know what to expect after you recognize the obvious patterns.

Yet I played. And played. And played. I finished a single player campaign and despite my many, many complaints, I won’t deny that I had fun doing it. Why? Why did I even keep playing after the first handful of glaring bugs? If I am prone to feeling guilt when playing games that I love, like Civilization Revolution, during the summer, why would I spend so much time playing a game that frustrates the hell out of me, and why did it feel so rewarding doing it?

I think the answer lies in a sense of accomplishment, of working toward something systematically and being good at it. The rewarding sense of skillfully executing a carefully planned campaign. There was a lot to do when I started playing. I needed to make my people happier, collect specific resources to keep them happy enough to stick around, find a new base, clear out plague hearts, recruit new people with skills that would allow me to build new facilities that my new base needed, find and claim useful outposts, help outside factions when I could, and more. It was a lot, but the challenge gave my mind a multi-layered problem to solve. I didn’t have that when playing God of War, Undertale, Life is Strange: Before the Storm, or even Civilization Revolution. When I think back, I had a very similar feeling with Stardew Valley. I began playing that game right in the middle of the fall semester, which was not a smart time to start a game that is known to steal lots of hours of lots of days. And I did indeed play a lot of it. Like, just as much time as I spent playing Breath of the Wild. But it didn’t feel like a waste of time or a guilty pursuit, despite having lots of work to do around my play sessions.

I suspect these two games have that in common. On the surface, they certainly seem like games that would add to stress and anxiety, because you have to think carefully about the future and make lots of important decisions that will affect that future. But for some reason it has the opposite effect. I won’t say that playing State of Decay 2 was calming, but it certainly kept some familiar real-world feelings of guilt and anxiety at bay. So, as much as I hated it, it was an interesting, enlightening, and dare I say ‘fun’ experience.

E3 2018 Wishlist

When I look back at my wishlist for 2017, I’m surprised by how many items were eventually announced (after E3, but still). Some of them were givens, sure, but I was surprised that Soulcalibur VI actually became a thing, and with Geralt in the mix, no less. Anyway, as I said in that blog, I love to speculate, even if some of my hopes end up being just that. With that in mind, I’m making a new list for this year, and some of the entries will, unfortunately be the same as they were last year.

Nintendo/Switch

Virtual Console (or, well, something like it)

This was on my list last year, but Nintendo recently announced that their online service, coming this fall, will be something of a subscription model, with access to a library of games included. Great! In theory! The problem is that the release library is very small compared to the wealth of games that were available with the Virtual Console. I’m all for some multiplayer Dr. Mario action, but I am really hoping Nintendo announces a steady release schedule for this service, or some kind of agreement with third parties to release individual games for purchase, even if it’s not called the “Virtual Console.” I love the mini consoles Nintendo has been releasing, but they are limited (in game selection and availability). So I want this, Nintendo. Please.

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Mother 3/ Brand new EarthBound game

I will put this on my list every year until we see one. Paula be casting Prayer all up in this.

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New Eternal Darkness game

Another repeat offender. I rambled on for too long last year about why I thought this was plausible, and it still might be, but I’m worried that Nintendo just doesn’t feel the need to produce adult horror games anymore. The original game was in development for the N64 and then ultimately released on the GameCube, when Nintendo was still semi-competing with Sony and Microsoft. Now, Nintendo seems content to do their own thing, which means a game like Eternal Darkness makes less and less sense as time goes on. But I still think it would be a great showcase for some of the Switch’s unique tech, like the HD rumble and infrared sensors. Oh well. I’ll keep my hopes high and expectations low for this one.

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New Smash Bros. characters

So it seems an absolute given that the new Smash game will be the highlight of Nintendo’s E3 video, but what about the roster? Given that each game is fundamentally the same in terms of gameplay and design, the roster is what I’m most curious about. Sure, I want a robust single player experience outside of the multiplayer brawling action (return of Subspace Emissary, plz), but when that iconic siren goes off and “A New Challenger Appears”? Hype. They will almost certainly play on that in their E3 video, but who beyond the Inklings from Splatoon will they announce? With previous characters like Snake, Bayonetta, Cloud, and Ryu, I don’t feel like anyone is outside the realm of possibility. So, aside from every dang previous character returning, who do I want to see? For one, Crash Bandicoot. I get a weird surge of nostalgic joy when rival mascots show up in Nintendo games, and it’s not totally ridiculous, given that the Crash trilogy will be making its way to the Switch in July. Halo‘s Master Chief also sounds like a stretch until you consider the cache it would give Microsoft with Nintendo and Smash fans, a potentially useful thing to have considering how far behind Sony they are in sales. I would also love to see Lara Croft, who also has a new game coming out in the fall. Two last mentions that would be incredible but are probably impossible: Mickey Mouse and Rey (Star Wars). Rey because, well, she is awesome. But Mickey Mouse strictly because it would be another iconic character that no one thought was possible to get for the game. Both of these are owned by Disney, though, and they are famously stingy with their characters, so I have no hope for those last two.

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Animal Crossing for Switch

My thoughts haven’t changed much on this. I was worried that the mobile AC game might give Nintendo an excuse to delay a proper console version, and with Smash Bros. being their big release for later this year, I’m still kind of worried that an Animal Crossing game won’t come anytime soon. Still, it would be nice to see an announcement at E3.

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Persona 5

Yes, I’ve already put well over 300 hours into the PS4 version, but I would buy a Switch port on day one, especially if they finally lift the restriction on taking screenshots. I’ve romanced Ann, Futaba, and Kawakami, but I’m keen to give a relationship with Makoto a shot. And Haru. And Tae. And Hif-okay, I can hear myself and I sound a little desperate, so let’s just move on.

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And that’s about it for Nintendo. I’m sure they’ll show more from the new Yoshi game, Metroid Prime 4, and maybe even the Pokémon game, but I’m only passively interested in those at this point. I’d like to see some fun new colors for the Joy-Cons, too, I guess. And an N64 Classic (though they might do the GameBoy first).

Sony/PS4

Most of what I’m looking forward to from Sony and third parties has already been announced, but it will be nice to see more from The Last of Us 2, Shadow of the Tomb Raider, Days GoneSpider-man, and maybe Soulcalibur VI and Anthem. So what’s left in the way of surprises? Well I’d love to see…

Final Fantasy VII

They announced this a while ago, but there has been some behind-the-scenes drama (uh, of course, it’s Square) followed by nothing but silence, so I would be pretty hyped if they showed an extensive trailer and announced that the first episode was going to drop this fall. True, the original game is not among my favorites in the series, but they will likely address much of that game’s clunkiness with this remake. And it would be one of those “oh snap it actually happened” moments in game history, so I have my fingers crossed that we’ll finally see something.

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Until Dawn 2

This is a holdover from last year’s list, but it seems perhaps more likely this year, given that Supermassive Games has released a bunch of the other games that they had in the works. Those games were hit or miss, which I can’t deny makes me worry about a potential Until Dawn sequel, but who am I kidding? I would be super excited to see it announced at E3 and I would definitely buy it at release, especially if it had an optional VR mode.

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Chrono Trigger/Cross sequel

I know this is a one-in-a-million shot. I know. Last year I left it as a footnote because it’s probably an impossible dream. But! I want it so bad. So I’m going to put it here in an attempt to will it into existence. Let’s do it.

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Microsoft/Xbox One

I didn’t have a section dedicated to Microsoft last year, because their exclusives just haven’t really been all that exciting for me. But unless they’re late in the stages of working on their next-gen hardware, which I doubt because of the XB1 X, they need to come out with some cool and exciting games to make some ground in their battle with Sony. They can’t win this generation, but at this point in the cycle more people begin buying second consoles, so if they’ve haven’t gotten a Switch or upgraded to a PS4 Pro, there are plenty of people who would snag an XB1 if the right group of games enticed them. Games like…

Fable 4

Sure, Lionhead Studios closed down, but rumors have been swirling about a possible fourth game for, well, years. With Sony snagging many of the big RPG mainstays, it would be a smart move for MS to drop a big, beautiful RPG of their own. Hell, the original Knights of the Old Republic was one of the main reasons I bought an original Xbox in the first place. I didn’t really want one. I didn’t feel like I needed it, and it was expensive. But when I heard about an RPG set in the Star Wars universe, where I could choose to be Dark Side or Light Side, and I could romance characters… well, I was sold. And the Fable games have always been fun, colorful, and whimsical, so I welcome another.

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Credit: https://www.eurogamer.net/articles/2018-01-17-sources-microsoft-plots-fable-return

New Perfect Dark game

These last couple of years have seen some strides, finally, for female video game, movie, and comic book characters. There are plenty of FPSs out there, but how many of them star a badass lady-spy like Joanna Dark? Rare and Microsoft flubbed Joanna’s star potential with Perfect Dark Zero, but if there was a time to redeem themselves and make a character that lived up to her original potential, it’s now.

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